Well guys, I would have to say this,
Dad, is some one who will not eat but still he'll feed you, so that you'll be healthy. Dad is a guy who will see his life in you, even when you are asleep and he'll be watching you, because you should have sound sleep with out any nightmares. He is someone who will still will walk with broken and repaired slippers but he'll get you new shoes so that you'll not get insulted around your friends. Dad is someone, who speaks less with you, who'll be angry at you all the time, he'll show him power being dad on you. Will scold you, will hit you when he's angry, will see you when you fell, but , he'll teach you how to stand again, by asking what happened & why you felt lonely, he'll be dying to see you smile, happy, laughing everytime he's around. Finally dad's were never worried about their death, but they are worried about you thinking what will happen to you when they pass away.
I'm not sure, whether you all expence such things but I did.
My dad, used to talk to me all the time about his failurs and how he learned to overcome them, so that I'll learn not to do the same mistakes. He used to tuck me in to bed, but, he'll be awake till I completely sleep then he'll sleep next to my bed with his hands on his chest and with satisfaction because I slept. I still remember the days where he used to repair the same slippers again and again but he bought me white shoes to go for ruining in the morning and play badminton.
When I was in my teens, he used to wait for me to come home every evening and take me out to talk how was my day, sometimes he'll scold me before and after I does the same mistakes again and again but never manhandled me because I should learn from my mistakes not because he can't, once I am in college, I never know how lonely I was, he used to call me every single day before he go to bed and share his day with me, but later I realized that he was also become lonely.
While the years passed, on an unfortunate event, my mom passed away. After being with her for more than 30 year, my dad was broken after she passed away but, for me he joined in a private organization for a job after his retirement at the age of 62. On the other hand my brothers and sister gave wonderful support, towards my studies, they never told me how much dad was upset, how broke he was, I never realized all these guys are giving me time for me to read, concert, do something good for myself, all this is because I shouldn't feel the pain? Out of all these things going on, by brothers used to send me money for my college fee. If I see some one in place of my dad after his period, they are my brothers.
Let me not deviate from my initial topic, I learned all the value,of my day, then when I become dad. It's not that easy.
So, I want to say,
I am sorry Dad, for not being a son of your expectations, we had times we fought for nothing, or I would say, I fought with you because of my stupidity and ego, there were times when I stopped talking to you for a short period of time, because of I feel I was right but, now I look back and think what a moron I was. I would want to be your favorite son again if there is any tiney-tiny opportunity again if there is another life, and I'll not let you down again.
I want to say this again, I am sorry if you are listening, please please accept my apology.
You gave me life, you are with me every moment of my life even when I am falling down, I even learned how to stand again once fallen, you scarified endless days of your life to make me what I am today...
Now I am a father too, I will make sure that, I will stay as supportive as you to my baby girl & I'll never let you down.
You are not here now, but , I never felt I am alone, because I see you as my unseen shadow.
Dad, you are my Hero - You are my back bone - You are my unseen shadow -
_ Rks chavali.
